Missing drugs

Most people think drugs just waste your time and screw up your life. They don't understand the happiness. They think you're off drugs a few months, a few years, you forget about them, put them behind you and good riddance, but this is not the way it goes. Drugs have mass  and  density. Thick and delicious, they fill every crevice inside you. They offer absolute comfort and well-being,  In reverse, their absence leaves you empty and arid. 

Sober, he had to keep busy and purposeful, always moving. If he stopped, he immediately heard the sandstorm inside himself, and it terrified him.

Carol Anshaw, Carry the One (New York: Simon & Schuster, 2012), p. 86